Remember Lot’s WifeLuke 17:32
Everyone is talking about the “New Year Stuff”. Statements like “2019 is a blank book, don’t let someone else write your story” and “What is your word for 2019?” You know what I’m talking about…you’ve seen them all over social media! Everything about making new commitments for the new year.
Before I look forward to 2019 (yes, I know, we’re already there) I want to take a moment to think back. Back where I’ve been this past year. When we were coming into the 2018 year, my husband had a fairly new job that was going well, we had just moved into a smaller, efficient home to save money, we were making plans to become grandparents that spring, we were adjusting to the loss of my mother, I was starting a few projects that I was enjoying and things, in general, looked pretty good. We were on a steady path so the word I chose for last year was CONSISTENCY. Stay the path. Keep everything on a steady upward keel. Then in February he got sick and I thought I was going to lose him. An ambulance trip to the hospital because it looked like he was having a heart attack. Quickly learning that the duplex we were in was actually toxic with fresh cigarette smoke coming through the vents from our neighbors because the illegally rented home had a furnace unit/room that was connected instead of separate units & rooms thus filtering their smoke filled air directly into our non-smoking home (2 chain smokers lived there). When the landlord refused to do anything about it, we went to the city, and that’s when we learned that the place was never to have been rented to begin with! WHOA!!
Things got pretty bad for awhile. We couldn’t afford a doctor. He had been so sick that he lost his job and I was trying to find one in the small community we were living in. My dad visited us a couple months later while hubby was still trying to recuperate and saw how sick he really was. By this time, our savings was pretty much gone and the conversation came around to moving us back to Nebraska where I could get a job fairly easily and we could live in the big empty house with dad while hubby took time to recuperate; which we ended up doing. Now, nearly one year after he first got sick, we are still here with dad (when he’s not visiting relatives across the nation!) and hubby is still sick, but slowly getting better. The doctor here can’t explain it. They deny that the smoke caused it, but there is a REASON that he suddenly went from breathing just fine to breathing on only 40% of his lungs, coincidentally at the same time his lungs were unintentionally compromised and filled with 2nd and 3rd hand smoke!! …but I digress… In addition to the physical, financial, and environmental challenges, we also faced some intense spiritual and personal challenges. We left the church we had devoted the last ten years of our lives to, the place where my husband and I faithfully served and sacrificed through most of our marriage and quickly learned who our friends were. We learned that lots of people like to sit back and judge you and talk about you, but very few step up and help do anything about it. We learned what it felt like to be completely raw on the inside and have our lives fully exposed and examined. We learned how true it is that only YHVH can heal that kind of a wound.
As we slowly heal, physically and spiritually, we look FORWARD. Forward to a fully healthy body again. Forward to financial security again. Forward to him being able to work full-time again without getting winded. Forward to a full spiritual recovery. We look forward to more time with our son and his beautiful family with our two grandchildren! We look forward to the time that we spend with his parents while they are still with us in this life. We appreciate the time we are blessed to have with my dad, living here with him. We also continue to MOVE forward. Even if it’s only a couple steps at a time, keep moving forward. In the job, spiritually, with our health, with family, with decluttering unused and unneeded things from every aspect of our lives.
When they were fleeing Sodom, Lot and his wife were told not to look back (Gen 19:17 And it came to pass, when they had brought them forth abroad, that he said, Escape for thy life; look not behind thee, neither stay thou in all the plain; escape to the mountain, lest thou be consumed.) Later, in Luke 17:29-32 we are again reminded of Lot and his wife. We were never given her name, but she was worthy of multiple mentions in the Bible. 29 But the same day that Lot went out of Sodom it rained fire and brimstone from heaven, and destroyed them all. 30 Even thus shall it be in the day when the Son of man is revealed. 31 In that day, he which shall be upon the housetop, and his stuff in the house, let him not come down to take it away: and he that is in the field, let him likewise not return back. 32 Remember Lot’s wife.
Remember Lot’s wife. Three little words that show us so much. Lot’s wife was no different from the women of today. She left lots of things behind. A comfortable home, servants, extended family, grandchildren, good friends, probably some favorite things from her home….nice dishes, pretty dresses and robes, maybe she had a wonderful garden that she enjoyed spending time in. Everything she had was left there in Sodom…she ran away with a bag on her back…whatever she, her husband, and the 2 daughters could carry. Nothing else. This past year, we’ve left a lot of things behind us and I’m guilty of spending some time looking back feeling sorry for myself and my husband. Feeling sorrowful that certain events happened the way they did. I had myself a grand old pity party.
REMEMBER LOT’S WIFE.
Because she looks backwards at what was instead of forward to where YHVH was leading her family…to safety, protection, and blessings. Thankfully I didn’t turn into a pillar of salt. I have a chance to correct myself and move FORWARD.
“ … he said, Escape for thy life; look not behind thee, neither stay thou in all the plain;” They weren’t told not to remember where they came from, but they were told not to LOOK back. Don’t TURN AROUND. You know where you came from, what trials you’ve been through, but don’t look back at it, don’t give it any more focus in your life! Don’t let your mind dwell there. Remember what you need to learn from it, but move FORWARD, away from the past, away from people who have hurt you, away from parts of your life that have no relevance to you now and forward to what YHVH has planned for your life! Set new goals and strive for them. Not just now, the first week of January, but all through the year.
Don’t stand still where you are, either!! Being stagnant is equal to being lifeless. Stagnant water is dead water because it can’t support living organisms and our lives are the same way.
So, yes. I chose a word.
Because Lot’s wife was told to move forward, not to look behind her, and not to stand still, but she didn’t heed the warning from the angels of the Almighty and became a lifeless statue.
Remember Lot’s Wife.